what a retarded faggot you
using an anime girl as your 'reaction face'
you stupid crazy fuckwad
you are conflating your identity with a cartoon characters, a FEMALE cartoon character
you are such a faggot
if you were assertive instead of whiny and submissive you could have real friends, especially girl friends
but you don't KNOW anything, you're fucking stupid, so you have nothing to assert.
This is why little faggots like you attach themselves to stronger older men.
but you likely won't be able to find one in real life.
so your only option is to READ books by men the like of which are very uncommon today. Read philosophy.https://16chan.xyz/pol/res/6373.html
there is a book club. Read Leviathan by Thomas Hobbes if you can, it will teach you about how things work and why, this will give you strength and confidence.
But maybe it's too hard for you because you are a such a self pitying retard.
In that case you can learn to read by reading the Lord of the Rings, one of the only decent works of modern fiction.
well, i tried, the rest is up to you you stupid fucking faggot