Jesus Christ. I was about to testify, but I feel like that might be too much personal info for an imageboard. Jesus stands at the door and knocks, you have to open the door and let him in. It's really like a red pill, you can't be given the red pill, you have to accept it on your own accord. If you humbly seek God, He will reveal Himself to you. If you open the door, open your heart, to Jesus Christ; he will enter you and change your life. Watch Jesus of Nazareth 1977 if you want a quick rundown on Christianity, don't let the hypocrisy of modern apostate churches drive you away. God wants you to have a personal relationship with Him, He doesn't want you to have a religion.
>In my case is just religion. Fear of God.
Fear of God is the beginning of wisdom.